What's up, Bbs!
; Okay so this post will be about my life before and after fitness and how it's still impacting me today.
I really apologize for not have a 'proper' before photo of me but i'll show you guys my after photo too. But if you follow me in instagram, you can see my progress and current body shape now(:
Ps: I'm sorry if you feel offended in any way in what i'm going to say but i'm just trying to tell you guys my journey and hoping that you'll get motivated or inspired.
ps: Please do not take the word 'fat' negatively. It was never a negative way to describe people. Humans made it sound horrible and use it for criticism instead.
Before
; When i was between 9 years old - 15 years old, people told me that they were jealous that i could eat whatever i wanted without gaining weight and looking physically chubby. I was happy and confused at the same time. Why happy? Happy that i wasn't gaining weight with all the junk i ate. Confused as i started to lose my stamina during Physical Education lessons and felt tired and exhausted very easily. I thought it was normal, though.When i was 16 years old (beginning year olf 2013), i started to hang out with very chubby people. I ate 2 Roti prata with egg and ask for more cow fats with it for breakfast, nearly every day for few months. And for lunch, i ate chicken rice plate, extra rice, extra chicken,a bowl of noodles and ate the leftovers my friends left (i hate wasting food so why not) for nearly like 4 or 5 times a week.
; For 4 - 7months, i ate and gained 10kg. Just like that. I only realize i physically look chubby when i was walking to school one day and that my thighs had abrasion and it was bad. I went to my school's toilet and saw the cellulite on my thighs and glutes and i could literally grab the 'fats' on my legs with like nearly my whole hand. I really didn't pay much attention to them and had little knowledge and interest about how important being 'healthy' or 'fit' was. But that was just the beginning.
; My friends and family realize i became chubbier. You know, boys being boys they started teasing me. I was able to take the 'tease' for like a month or 2? After that, i started to have pimples all over my face, can't fit into my lovely dresses, baju kurung and my favorite jeans. My mom compared me and her and said she wasn't chubby when she was my age. I looked into the mirror with just my undies and i began to tear up. That's when i started becoming unhappy with myself and the stress got me. Instead of doing something, i continued eating like nobody business out of stress.
; One day, i was wearing track pants and tucked in my shirt. Well, i guess my track pants were quite tight and a boy in my class said while i walked pass him, "Look at that fat ass. Omg it's so fat you see that?" I was angry. i stopped, turned back, shouted and cursed him. And there was a boy in class his name is Zubair, he always bullied me and said how fat i was when in actual fact, i wasn't but i took it seriously as i realize i was the chubbiest girl as compared to my other girlfriends. I was so sad and angry that i stomped out of the class and cried. My friend, she comforted me and said this "instead of crying, do something about it". That's when i began to make changes in my life. A total 360 change.
Before, 2014, 63kg.
Discipline, Determination, and Motivation
These are the 3 words that made me who i am today.
These were what i did and some still doing it:
- Gave all my junk food to my siblings and make sure it's out of my sight.
- Followed fitness pages in instagram, twitter and facebook.
- Suscribed to many fitness youtubers too.
- Brought 875ml of water bottle and started to bring it to school every single day and keep drinking it.
- Instead of eating prata early morning, i drank grape juice and ate sandwiches(with wholemeal bread).
- I brought oat cookies to replace them with my crave for junk food.
- No more chicken rice extra chicken, extra rice, a bowl or noodles and ate friend's leftovers. Instead i just ate a normal plate of chicken rice and if still hungry, i just kept drinking water.
- During recess time, i played basketball/soccer/jog with my friends for like 15-20 minutes and went to eat.
- Instead of taking bus home, i walked home. Even during the fasting month.
- I actively participated during Physical Education Lessons and force myself to sweat a lot.
- Cut down on rice. (My mom was shocked to see me eating from 2 or 3 plates of rice to rice the size of my palm.)
- Jog for at least twice or thrice a week.
- Gym 2 to 3 times a week.
(Those is blue colour is what i am still doing now)
After
; After 6-8 months, i lost 10kg (2015) and maintained my weight 53kg up till now. I became happier. Happier, healthier and fit than before. I can fit into my favorite jeans, wear more tight fitting clothes. The irony was that the boy who bullied me for being chubby became my best friend. He pushed me hard to lose weight and only to realize his criticisms made me change and became stronger. I really love him for being there for me.
; Eating healthily, workouts and trips to the gym became a habit for me and part of me. If i don't do these things, i felt weird and sad that kind haha. To be honest, i am still halfway through my goals which is to gain more muscle weight and more defined abs and booty.
; I feel so good and proud of myself when people praise me for having a lean or tone body. It makes me feel worth going through all the struggles before. It makes me feel even happier sharing knowledge about fitness&health to people.
; How it changed me is that it made me realize that there is no such thing are excuses. Everyone have 24 hours. It depends on how i discipline myself and managed my time to set aside everything else and take an hour to workout, gym or jog. It also made me change perspective of people who are trying to lose weight or dedicate their life to fitness&health. Before, i always thought they were 'acting' and like step healthy. But after going through it for myself, i gained respect to everyone and stopped judging those who are trying their best to dedicate their time to fitness&health.
I really cannot thank Zubair and the people enough for helping me change and encouraged me throughout this journey.
Now?
; Now my goal is to reach 55kg (Muscle gains). Have a bigger and more toned booty, more defined abs and gain arm muscles. Currently in a fitness CCA in school. I'm also thinking about going through a fitness course and get a personal trainer certificate. The only supplements i take is On Whey Protein and i only drink it before and after my workouts and maintain by eating more protein and take care of my diet. My craving for junk food only comes in when my period comes xD.
; I am currently doing a lot of research to gain more knowledge about fitness&health. More people are asking me for advice so it's better for me to gain more knowledge too.
I guess this is all i wanted to say and share. If any of you have any comments or queries, don't hesitate to ask me on my ask.fm, email or Instagram dm me! I will reply and help you if you need advice (:
For my fitness&health posts, i will update about my progress, sharing of what are the most common problems people have these days etc. Do anticipate my fitness&health posts!
Till then!!!
Love,
Syimah Mac
